rikkitiatiny

I hope to Be myself

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ADHD

So I deal with lots of stuff bc ADHD.For me it's mostly, Rejection sensitivity, and emotional dysregulation, hyperfixations. I try my best to keep it offline, but it doesn't always go that way.Rejection sensitivity is fear of being rejected or that everyone hates you. It’s also texting something and the gc doesn’t respond, feeling “Oh god they hate me now” a lot.
A lot of anxiety and easily feeling abandoned, and therefore needing lots of reassurance. Lots of trust issues but still being naive.Emotional dysregulation is
Just not being able to regulate your emotions to fit the situation. “Overreacting” and feeling too much? Your emotions take over and even though you feel like it’s the right response because it’s just natural to you, it’s not. Usually, stepping away from the situation and going back to it later works because our emotions get to calm down, but sometimes we don’t realize it’s happening until it’s too late.
I try my best to keep the blow-outs offline, or wait with responding until I’ve processed everything, to avoid accidentally, unintentionally hurting others in my blindness, but if it ever happens, I’m sorrySometimes I forget objects or that even people exist. So that means I can forget you exist for a moment, and certain emotions too. Like if I lost someone, and forget it, I don’t feel grief but then when I remember them I feel grief? I tend forget to text or interact with you sometimes, not because I dislike you, I just forget you exist accidentally.I often have imposter syndrome and sometimes the opposite, in which I can sound braggy or narcissistic and this is one of the things I’m trying to keep down as much as I can.
I also get easily influenced to some extent. Like getting hype Bc the song is hype, sad Bc song is sad, but with people too. Like group mentality I guess? Again, it’s weird.

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